Friday, August 14, 2015

The Rough Days of Motherhood

I’ve got some words to share today.
It’s the kind of day we need to skip pleasantries and get right down to business.
It’s time to dive deep rather than act like we are holding it all together and everything is good…because really, it isn’t.IMG_4016

Several years ago, I took this picture of my daughter and it captures the way I feel right now.  My head is spinning and I’m feeling weary from dealing with the SAME OLD THING.
Earlier this morning, I yelled at my son for hitting his sister for the millionth time. Sometimes I think to myself…“How many times do I have to tell you, we don’t hit?”  He knows we don’t hit. But he still continues.
Then we moved onto the complaining and pouting that ensued as we were trying to work on some homeschooling. Somewhere during our time, my daughter told me, “Homeschooling isn’t fun.” I wanted to respond, “Amen sister! Teaching kids that are acting this way isn’t fun for me either.” Lately, there’s been lots of complaining and pouting for various things and reasons. This is the part of being a mom that drains the life right out of me. Seriously, I should have just thrown myself on the ground and had an energy drain right in front of my kids!
Some days are just like this…draining, frustrating, and at times I question my worth as a mom.
Am I doing anything good as a mom?
Will my kids ever learn self-control?
Will they ever appreciate what I’m doing?
This mom gig is hard..for real!  Sometimes I sound like a broken record, telling my children the same thing over and over.  Sometimes we need a lot of repetition in order to learn something.  There are days I may feel like I’m going to pull my hair out if I have to tell my kids the same thing one more time, but there is a bigger picture at stake.  God has placed our kids in the care of my husband and myself.   God has also given us His Word.  It’s His Word that gives me hope and courage to move on, past the hard, difficult days of motherhood.
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it. ~Proverbs 22:6 
The days can feel long, but the years will be short.  I only have a small amount of time before my little ones will leave the nest and even though it can be hard and grueling sometimes, its one of the most important jobs I will ever do.
I won’t always do it right.
I will mess up.
I will lose my patience.
I will get frustrated.
I will feel like a failure at times.
But God has plan.  A plan for me to train up my child.  Even if it means a lot of the same old thing!

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